It’s hard to be away from home while my dad is going through so much. He can’t seem to catch any breaks and it makes me so nervous for him. Scared, petrified. How can they help him get better? Things keep happening to make it worse. Brain tumors. They took away months of potential treatment. And now Lyme’s disease. I don’t know how it affects the cancer, but it can’t be good. It is another road block. A delay. Another thing pulling my dad away from the life he deserves to be living. Another thing wearing him down. Imagine not having the energy to do something you’ve always been able to do. Imagine losing your appetite for weeks at a time. Imagine waiting for the day you can be injected with stuff that makes you sick so that you can be healthy again someday. It’s not something you can imagine. It’s something that happens to other people. But sometimes, I guess, it does happen to you.

Sometimes thoughts can be so Loud! Imagine it, when you have something on your mind, not just anything, but something that’s really bothering you, or something that you’re really excited about, the thoughts, they are just loud. It’s as though they are yelling at you. They make it hard to focus, to listen, to do anything but pay attention to those thoughts. And they overwhelm you. Because loud thoughts take up your brain, almost as though someone is actually talking to you and you are listening to them. There is a potence there. Something completely out of control, but it’s in your own mind.